When my husband and I were expecting our baby, I found it to be a time of deep spiritual growth. My prayer and study of Christian Science during this time brought me to the discovery that pregnancy and childbirth are not physical processes, but the unfoldment of a spiritual idea of God. This understanding came from a sentence in Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy: “The offspring of God start not from matter or ephemeral dust. They are in and of Spirit, divine Mind, and so forever continue” (p. 267).
The realization that God, Spirit, and not matter, is the source of all life, gave me a spiritual view of pregnancy and childbirth. This reassured me that the baby and I were exempt from any so-called physical laws related to pregnancy. As an expectant mother, I knew God could only bless me. And my baby, as a spiritual idea of God, could only be healthy and whole.
At first, I wanted to have the baby at home with a midwife and a Christian Science nurse in attendance. However, our health insurance plan wouldn’t cover a home delivery, and my husband didn’t feel comfortable with the idea either. He wanted me to have the baby in a hospital with a medical physician.
As I prayed, I realized that I had been willful, and that I needed to be more compassionate toward my husband’s concerns. I also realized that even though a medical environment wasn’t my preferred choice, I could love all the expectant mothers choosing that approach and everyone working in the medical field.
I prayed to know that “Spirit blesses the multiplication of its own pure and perfect ideas” (Science and Health, p. 512). Therefore, I knew that the baby, being a “pure and perfect idea” of God, had to be insured by Him. This helped me trust that the right provision for the delivery would be revealed.
Soon, I learned that our insurance would cover a delivery in a birthing center with a midwife. This satisfied the desires of both my husband and me. And we found a birthing center that supported a spiritual approach to childbirth.
The birth of our baby girl was gracefully attended by three midwives. The baby was whole—perfect and complete.
However, the midwives became concerned about me because of an unusually large amount of blood loss during the delivery and a loss of consciousness afterward. They said if my condition didn’t improve within a few hours, they would need to transfer me to a hospital.
The practitioner and I quickly began praying to know that God, as all-powerful, had been in control during the delivery and continued to be afterward and that there was no other power that could take control of me. My condition soon improved, and there was no need to go to the hospital. My husband and I went home with our baby the next morning.
Yet, there was still a need for more healing. The symptoms associated with blood loss became quite serious, and at times I felt as if I were passing on. The midwives were very concerned, and one midwife made some surprise visits to our home to check on me and the baby. There was some fear that because of the symptoms I displayed, I could not fully care for my child. So, my husband, mother, and sister helped take care of the baby.
The practitioner asked me if I loved the baby. This question startled me and made me realize I had a decision to make. I needed to choose life, not death. I wanted to live; I wanted to take care of my baby and see her grow up. So, every time the aggressive symptoms engulfed me, I chose life with great authority and dominion. I declared my willingness to live and my ability to express divine Life, God. I thanked God for giving me a baby to love and for causing me to express God’s Mother-love.
Although I was making progress, I still needed to handle the image of losing consciousness after the delivery, which kept coming to thought. As I prayed, I realized that as the reflection of the one divine Mind, I could never lose the consciousness of God and myself as His loved and safe child. Since “God and the real man are inseparable” (Science and Health, p. 476), there was never a single moment when I was separated from God or needed to regain the consciousness of my spiritual identity.
With these insights, I felt divine Love leading me to resume the position as Second Reader of my Christian Science branch church that I’d held during the pregnancy. Trusting God’s guidance, I took an active stand for my ability to serve. This was a turning point in the healing. Within a few weeks I was completely healed, and I was able to fully care for my baby.
Shortly after I returned to reading, my husband and I had our last visit with our midwife. She checked our daughter and me and kept saying how perfect we were. When we said goodbye, she hugged my husband and me and told us we were good parents. I thanked her and praised God for His healing work.
My heart overflows with gratitude for the healing power of Christian Science, for the Christian Science practitioner and Christian Science nurse who contributed to this healing, and for the gracious support of my family.
Derry, New Hampshire, US
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