In October 2011, I suddenly lost the use of my legs. They simply would not hold me up. In addition, my back was extremely painful, and I lost the use of my bodily functions. Many nights I sat up all night because lying down seemed impossible.
A dear friend, who is a Christian Science practitioner and teacher, agreed to pray with me. The full healing took about three months. During that time, I had to take a leave of absence from my teaching job and from my responsibilities as First Reader in my Christian Science branch church.
I never did accept that I would remain in a wheelchair or need a cane, that I might not walk upright again, or any of the other dismal prospects that presented themselves to me. I was familiar with the concept of God as Truth, so it came naturally for me to deny the untruthful yet aggressive suggestions of pain, fear, and disability, and to replace these lies with the comforting and powerful truth of God’s law of health and wholeness. I prayed to realize that God loves me, that God and I coexist, and that I am entirely spiritual—in fact, that the truth of my being is that I reflect only God, divine Mind. I began to see myself in terms of living right now as a spiritual idea of God.
One of the biggest lessons I learned through this experience was to listen wholeheartedly to God, and not to stop listening until I felt God’s love for me. At first, my prayer was mainly to declare vigorously out loud the spiritual facts about myself that I have learned from Christ Jesus in the Bible and from Mary Baker Eddy in Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures. Eventually, though, I quieted down and paid attention to the practitioner as she told me to remember that I was already well, strong, and complete as God made me.
Since I was housebound, I had plenty of time to pray and read. I discovered ideas in the Bible and Science and Health that were entirely new to me. For example, in Science and Health I came across this sentence: “The evidence of divine Mind’s healing power and absolute
control is to me as certain as the evidence of my own existence” (p. 177). I wanted to be more certain of divine Mind’s “healing power and absolute control.”
Another very helpful idea from Science and Health was that we are entirely separate from the dream of material living and that God reveals spiritual understanding to us (see p. 14). This took off the burden of trying to “get” more spiritual understanding. I simply needed to open my thought to accept the truths that God was revealing to me.
I couldn’t get to church, so the online Sunday church services and Wednesday testimony meetings from The Mother Church were a highlight. During one of them, I was deeply touched by the readings from the Bible and Science and Health, and I started sobbing in the
realization that I really was going to be healed, that God was all-powerful and able to heal me.
I kept praying, feeling more confident and joyful day by day, until I was fully healed. By the end of December, I was walking again, listening to God with every step. I was pretty sure I’d be able to return to my teaching job in mid-January when the semester started up again.
About that time, my family in Brooklyn, New York, called to ask if I felt strong enough to fly there from my home in Texas and play with my grandchildren while my daughter and son-in-law packed and got ready to move. I did feel strong enough, and I went joyfully!
At the beginning of the winter semester, I was back in the classroom, back to swimming laps as usual, and happily participating in my branch church activities. When summer came, I flew for 20 hours to the Middle East to visit my family, who had moved there from New York. We spent two weeks together exploring that part of the world.
This healing was a spiritual adventure that I’ll never forget. My gratitude is profound for the patient, insightful practitioner and her solid conviction of God’s love for me. She expressed such a clear understanding of Christian Science and taught me more about the scientific process of Christian healing. Now, I find myself thinking about God all the time, thanking Him continually throughout my day, telling Him how much I love Him. I feel renewed, and I am experiencing a “deep-settled calm” (Mary Baker Eddy, Message to The Mother Church for 1902, p. 19).
San Antonio, Texas, US
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