For a year or so I couldn't hear out of one ear. I had to turn my head and listen with my "good" ear in order to hear someone in a conversation, and had to use that same ear when talking on the telephone. Since I could at least hear out of one ear, I didn't give the matter serious attention and gave myself only a half-hearted Christian Science treatment.
Last year, after reading the Christian Science Bible Lesson one morning, I asked myself, "Why couldn't my prayers heal my hearing?" I did some soul searching and realized that I couldn't believe that God, who is Spirit, is All-in-all, and at the same time wonder where matter came from. And the thought kept coming to me that other people could be healed in Christian Science, but not me. I'd had many healings before through prayer, but that doubt persisted.
I have a copy of Paul Stark Seeley's wonderful article, "Our Father's Demand—Unself Mortality" (Journal, June 1975, p 303). It's one of my favorite articles on metaphysics, and that particular day something struck me when I read it again. Mr. Seeley began the article by relating the story of Jesus' healing of a blind man. His disciples, after seeing the man, asked Jesus if the man or his parents had sinned, because he was born blind.
