I Am not a musician, but this morning I felt as if my heart was one overflowing song, though the words were simple, "God's love, God's love."
I was brought up under a bondage of fear. From childhood a Liberal I was persecuted by the Conservatives in theology, and this produced suffering that I well knew but could not define. Then Truth-driven to Christian Science, deeper antagonism awaited me, even my dear old church uniting in opposition to this new sect, everywhere spoken against. So the shrinking from condemnation was not lessened but heightened. I sought to love in return for hate, thus hoping to win at least the privilege of individual conviction. Midst it all God's smile was upon honest work.
At last I awakened to the fact that this fear must be broken. Its history unfolded like a panorama. As a child I was taught to love my Church and to answer for the faith that was in me. Strange, cruel things were said to me for not believing in endless punishment, and serious illness ofttimes followed. I learned to fear this antagonism but did not love my faith less but more and more. My heart was ardent, but a troubled, fearsome heart withal. Not until I was healed in Christian Science did the outflowing music from the dear Father's love reach me.
