Last year I lost my husband of 18 years. It was a sudden loss, and I had no time to prepare for this change in my life. As a Christian Scientist, I knew that the answer to my grief would be found by a better understanding of God as Life, so I dug into my study of the Bible and Mary Baker Eddy’s writings. Immediately after my husband’s passing, I began to claim that Life is eternal, and that his experience was continuing. I was able to feel confident of that very quickly, but as I started to face my new life alone, it was much harder to gain the same level of peace about my future.
One issue of concern was that my husband had been the main income earner of the family. Because of a new venture he had undertaken the year prior, we had no life insurance and limited savings. I knew that I had to make a choice whether to continue to worry about the situation I was facing, or turn to God. I knew that our income and supply had never really come through a human intermediary, but always from God in the form of right ideas that open the channels of supply, and thus the loss of my husband could not stop that resource.
Just as the deer was there but is not always seen, my husband has been and always is “here.”
