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Testimonies of Healing

Christian Science came to me...

From the January 1913 issue of The Christian Science Journal


Christian Science came to me when all hope had fled. Some one has said that "at some time in each human life there comes a day of crucifixion," and that time surely had come to me. I was without a ray of light mentally and spiritually, as well as a physical and mental wreck, having no God and from a physical standpoint a victim of inherited constitutional trouble. I had had almost "every ill that flesh is heir to," and there did not seem to be a sound organ in my body. I was a burden to myself and the doctors gave me no hope that I would ever be any better, but told me to be thankful if I did not have to contend with even worse conditions physically. I was a nervous wreck and consumed with fear of what I ate; in fact, I was afraid of every ill which a diseased mentality could conjure up. One thing I was not afraid of, but longed for, and that was to die and be out of my misery; but the doctors told me that one with my chronic troubles often lived to be very old, so unless I took my own life, as I often felt tempted to do (but out of consideration for my mother refrained from doing), there seemed nothing for me to do but to endure a life of misery as best I could.

I had naturally a happy disposition, and I tried to keep up an outward show of cheerfulness, but the misery of my condition often seemed a burden too heavy to bear. I had been brought up in an orthodox church, but when afflictions came and I needed sustaining, I felt that all the church had to offer me was a stone, and I was in sore need of bread. I then began to question the teachings of theology, and became a doubter. I craved something at that time, though I knew not what, but I know it was what all mankind is seeking, whether knowingly or ignorantly, namely, the truth of the problem of life and being.

I had Christian Science treatment six years before I accepted Science. I consented to have treatment to please some dear friends, but I did not seem to be ready at that time, as I had not reached the limit of my extremity. As the physical healing was all I wanted at that time, and as my case was not reached at once (although years of treatment by the doctors had failed to cure me), I thought there was nothing in Christian Science and again resorted to materia medica; but the seed of Truth was deeply planted, and never was I able to get completely away from Christian Science again. Wherever I turned it confronted me. I seemed to be constantly meeting people who spoke of Science to me, and I read eagerly everything I could find which had been written against it. I also waded through thousands of pages in my search for Truth in books on evolution, moral philosophy, physical science, etc., all in a vain search for what I seemed to feel I must find somewhere, not realizing in my blindness and hardness of heart that what I sought was "closer to me than breathing, and nearer than hands and feet."

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