It all started when I met up with this girl. We got on great, but after I expressed my feelings, it became apparent that we were going to stay friends. I did pray about the situation, and I thought I'd found my peace about it. But later, we had a bit of a shaky conversation about a guy she was dating who she didn't really want to be with. That's when I realized my feelings for her were still there—and I wished she were going out with me instead.
When I went home that evening, I just asked God, "Well, I don't know what to do. Would you please show me?" I love this about God: That right when you feel like you're in the middle of a really tricky human situation where you don't know what to think and you don't know what to do, He gives you His thoughts—He speaks the messages you need to hear.
I saw in that moment that the feelings I was experiencing and the thoughts I was having were divided into two sets. One was the set of thoughts that say: "I need." "I want." "Me, me, me." The other set was at a whole different level, where things are distilled into their spiritual essense. Those were the thoughts that were telling me what my spiritual desires were: To be a good friend. To express purity. To love this girl the way God was showing me to love her.
