In the universal desire for Love and Life, I, like many others, had turned in this direction and in that, hoping at each new point in the search to grasp these unseen forces, which, when found, must bring an abiding satisfaction that would rule out uncertainty, unrest, and further alternatings between hope and fear. In my earliest consciousness, God stood for good; but, the opposite realization in the world around me caused me to doubt this intuitive sense of abstract good, and brought to me the sense of self-condemnation because of my inability to demonstrate over the bondage of evil. With Paul, I could exclaim, "O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death?" The answer: "I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord," seemed meaningless; for sin, sickness and death abounded. After canvassing the field for spiritual versus material proof, I reached a point where I disbelieved that, "Where death abounded, grace should much more abound;" and, like "the fool," I said in my heart, "There is no God."
While seeking a remedy for physical ill, having failed to find one in medicine, I was led to a Christian Scientist. After the first conversation, "mine infirmity," as physical, was of secondary consideration! I knew then, as surely as to-day, that in Christian Science alone could be found The law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus," that frees from the law of sin and death." These words of Scripture were so familiar but, in the consciousness all about me, I had heretofore found in them no healing efficacy. There came an instantaneous recognition that the Master-hand had met and touched life, and, that its issues belonged to the Divine Science of Mind. My understanding yielded immediate assent and, during an interim of four years, the few minor questionings of the pains of sense have been met and answered in Truth. In response to the larger, deeper, far-reaching questionings, there comes abundant assurance from the revelation given to us in Science and Health.—
