I too wish to express my sincere gratitude for the blessings which I have experienced through Christian Science. I was unable to recover from the effects of what the doctors considered a severe stomach trouble. The fear that the trouble might return gave me no peace. I lived in constant anxiety and nervousness. Every time I ate a meal the thought came to me, Will it agree with me? The result was that I would become indisposed, and this made me more fearful. I no longer knew what I should eat, and became quite disconsolate. I began to suffer from melancholy, became tired and frail,—in short, I lost all desire to live.
Then I heard of Christian Science and attended a Wednesday evening testimony meeting. I think I shall always remember that evening. The reading made a deep impression upon me, and I had never before so clearly understood the meaning of hymns that were sung. Never before had I felt God's help to be so near; I felt i had only to avail myself of it, such a certain and attainable sense I had of His nearness. From then on I regularly attended the Christian Science church services. The desire had been awakened within me to learn more and more of this religion, and when at times I did not find the way by myself and a thought of fear tried to come in, I asked a dear Christian Science practitioner for help, and through kind admonition she would soon put me on the right path again.
I am grateful not only for having become a new woman physically; morally, too, Christian Science has brought me many blessings. I learned to see how much sorrow and anxiety we can spare ourselves by first removing the beam from our own eye before trying to extract the mote from our brother's. Self-will, suspicion, faultfinding, and sensitiveness had taken root in me and caused me to experience bitter disappointments. This recognition came to me one day when, after a sleepless night, I went to the Sunday service with the intention of asking a practitioner, after the service, to help me out of this turmoil which apparently was surrounding me. But during the service I was liberated; all the error which had burdened me in so many forms had dissolved into nothingness. The afternoon, which I had anticipated with such a sense of anxiety, brought me nothing but joy. I was seized with an inexpressible feeling of gratitude to God, and was made to see that God "is nigh unto all that call upon him, to all that call upon him in truth."
