Six years ago I was in a condition of utter hopelessness, —health, happiness, everything that endears life to us, had been lost. I had been a sufferer from physical anguish, the symptoms of which, being quite unusual, deprived reputable and worthy medical men of the power to diagnose or name. I underwent two surgical operations at the cost of great pain and expense; was most faithful to any and all conditions prescribed by materiel medica,—electrical treatment, baths, massage, and the usual routine,—but was growing constantly less fit to take my place in active life. After about ten years of this suffering I began to despair mentally, and just when I was about to undergo the third and most serious operation, divine Love led me to the blessed truth taught by our beloved Leader, Mrs. Eddy, through which I was freed absolutely from the torment of physical agony.
I thought I was thankful for this healing, but I found that even with health I was still not happy; and now I know why. I was hungry—starving mentally and spiritually. I longed for something, I knew not what, but as I studied the Bible and our text-book the answer came. It was not at once, however, for I had to strive, and often I felt a sense of discouragement which said, "This is not for you;" but with honest endeavor I found what I wanted,—God,— and when we find God as revealed by the study of Christian Science, we find the peace of mind which passes all understanding. There is a never-ending prayer of thanksgiving in my heart for the merciful, loving, and just God it is now my privilege to know, and the deepest reverence and love for our self-sacrificing and Christlike Leader.
St. Louis, Mo.
