Although starting a family was our fondest desire, my husband and I were having trouble realizing our hopes. Two failed pregnancies caused me to reach out for a more spiritual view of family and children.
We had been open to the idea of adoption all along, and at this point a path opened up for us to adopt a little boy. Having this little guy in our family, and learning to see him as God's precious son, was infinitely better than my previous desire merely to experience the human processes of conception, gestation, and delivery of a baby.
Later, though, I did become pregnant again, and I immediately called upon a Christian Science practitioner for treatment. During the initial months of pregnancy, I prayed to discover what God had already done in creating His child and to see that in His creation there could be no miscarriage, defect, or malformation. I also prayed to understand that time (trimesters) had nothing to do with the formation of the baby's spiritual individuality.
