I was at the end of the line of materia medica some four years ago, and despair faced me, when a friend said: "Investigate Christian Science." I was disgusted; still, I thought, "I'll read the book, and tell D— I have done so, and then she will be satisfied." As a duty I laboriously read five pages a day, reading being for me the hardest of all employment. About the middle of Vol. 1. I began to want to read more than my stent. Then I said, "I'll test this. If it only could be true! but it cannot be." When a certain belief threatened me however, I read; and, lo! it was gone, and came no more for three months. This encouraged me. Again, when I had such intense belief of headache that I could not open my eyes, I urged mother to read Science and Health to me. In a few minutes the pain disappeared. Once more I was in such severe belief I felt I could not treat myself, and asked mother to read to me. She did so, and the pain became intense. I said: "Read 'till this met." Several times it was tried, with like results, when suddenly I felt the work was done. Though the belief of pain had not subsided, I dropped asleep, and awoke well.
The thought I wish to convey is this: God does the work; hence in reading Science and Health, I must know what He has for me in those pages. I read daily a short lesson, feeling that each word meets my special need for the hour — that it is God's message to me. The less struggling to understand, and the more leaving it to God to enlighten, the better results I get. In fact, if we feel "I lay all, self, at Thy feet, and wait for Thy food," we shall be fed — if not in our way, in His own infinitely better way. — No. Reading, Mass.
