As the result of a prolonged and painful nervous breakdown, I was a wreck when Christian Science first found me. I could not sleep without the use of drugs, and had been in the doctor's hands for months without avail, until at last I seemed as one "having no hope, and without God in the world." This of course had a very depressing effect on my husband and children, also on my mother, who tried in vain to help me. Every possible remedy was tried,—everything that human love and care could bestow. The doctor was kindness itself, but at last I realized very clearly that God alone could heal me, and if ever I got well, it would be by what we used to call a miracle.
As I now know, the healing that comes from God is not miraculous, but divinely natural. Quite unexpectedly, and as it seemed by chance, a friend asked me to try Christian Science. I thought it very mean to turn to God as a last resort, but my husband urged me to do so, and like many others, I have been thankful ever since. My husband wrote for Christian Science treatment, which was given at once, and although I did not see the practitioner for ten days, I began to mend immediately. When I met him, he reminded me that "with God all things are possible," and explained the twenty-third psalm so simply that I at once realized if God's love was all around me I could not lack sleep, or anything else needful. He asked me to give up the sleeping draught and rest quietly in the thought that God was taking care of me. I did so, and that night I slept perfectly, and have done so ever since.
Other conditions gradually improved. The joy and hope of spiritual understanding wrapped me round like a mantle of light, and I began to know God as my loving Father-Mother. With gratitude I recognize that "divine Love always has met and always will meet every human need" (Science and Health, p. 494). I could soon see how Jesus in his love and compassion healed the sick and sinful by giving them a better understanding of God, and of man as God's image and likeness. The Bible grew nearer and dearer to me than ever before, and its pages were illumined by the study of that wonderful book, "Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures," which unlocked the door and enabled the flood of light to flow into my life.
