Job said, "Oh that I knew where I might find him! that I might come even to his seat! "My earliest recollection is of this same desire manifesting itself in me—even as a child. In motherhood, after the passing on of my little daughter, when joy seemed to have passed out of my life, I found myself walking out at night alone under the stars, impelled by this same intense longing to find God; yet an impassable barrier seemed between us, although my whole being cried out that He was near and dear.
Christian Science was offered to me at that time, but I would not hear of it, nor read any of the literature. One day, however, a friend said to me: "Why, you are spiritual, you are not material. Man is spiritual; "and then and there the perception of the truth of being began to dawn upon me. After that, instead of refusing Christian Science I could not learn enough of it. I read and studied all the time, and although I did not look for physical healing, still I was healed physically as well as mentally and morally. This teaching has indeed proved to be for me the solution of the human problem and my salvation.
The first manifested result of my study was that I no longer desired stimulants. For years I had depended upon them for strength, and it was as much of a surprise and delight to me as it was to others when my desire for them and my seeming need of them was found to be gone. Truth itself had proved a sufficient support for me, rendering material stimulant unnecessary. I had long been a victim of chronic bowel trouble and was never without a nightly remedy. That also became useless, for the physical system adjusted itself naturally and permanently. Chronic catarrh, which had been battled with since childhood, gradually ceased to be, and all this without direct effort or thought on my part, it being simply a logical result of a changed thought. The great sorrow and the mental problems, for which I had sought treatment, proved more difficult; but in time these also were overcome, and now instead of being unsatisfied and discordant, as I was when under daily medical treatment, I find myself a normal, happy woman, settled, satisfied, and harmonious, having found in God the true Physician.
