A little more than 20 years ago, before I found out about Christian Science, I was suffering from many ills: a grave problem with my eyes, back pains, rheumatism, and chronic constipation. I would often cry about my situation, wondering if my life would be better one day. I was praying a lot within the framework of the religion I was following at that time.
During the religious services in the church I was attending then, people would give strong testimonies of healing, and that made me question myself about the way I was praying (what was I doing wrong?), which increased my sense of guilt and self-pity.
The pastor of that church had suggested that I spend some periods of time praying and fasting. I noticed that I felt better during these periods of fasting, and that the improvement would last for a few days after I stopped the fasting. But about a week later, my health problems would come back, and actually would get worse. This created in me a huge sense of confusion.