Following the very difficult natural delivery of our first child, I was told by the attending physician that I should never attempt another natural delivery—that it would be dangerous for both the baby and me. I prayed earnestly to better understand God’s allness as the only cause and power governing and loving all creation. I needed to overcome my fear of this medical advice and know that God would guide me in what was right for me.
With growing assurance of God’s total governance, fear diminished, and then my husband and I found we were expecting our second child. I felt prayerfully led to inquire about a home delivery with a midwife. I explained to her what the doctor had said previously, but she accepted me as a client.
Throughout the pregnancy I continued to pray to see both the baby and myself as God’s beloved children—created spiritually in the divine image and likeness, as the first chapter of Genesis states. Most important, I prayed to see more clearly that God’s law governs every aspect of His creation, and to know that I couldn’t lose that clarity under the stress of the circumstances. This preparation would help me hold fast during the delivery to what God knows and causes, and not be swayed by fears that material conditions rule us instead of God’s spiritual laws and goodness.