As the years of study and demonstration of Christian Science go by, I grow increasingly grateful for the progress made in letting God govern my life. The freedom which has come to me from learning more and more to leave plans and their outcome to God is beyond any I previously dreamed of. Subjecting one's thinking to an honest checkup, with the help of the truths given us by Mary Baker Eddy in her book, "Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures," and then being willing to trust unfoldment to God, is a beautiful and thrilling experience, bringing with it unfailing blessing. As our Leader says (Science and Health, p. 1), "Desire is prayer; and no loss can occur from trusting God with our desires, that they may be moulded and exalted before they take form in words and in deeds."
I am often helped by recalling an experience which occurred many years ago. It seemed right to give up a fine and enjoyable teaching position with a comfortably steady salary to plunge into an unknown world of free-lance writing. During the year that followed, I had to rely on God for my supply more completely than I ever had before, and consequently I grew in spiritual strength. Various writing and editing positions opened, offering me a regular income, yet I was led not to take any of them, and went on in what seemed to some an unworldly and precarious existence. Once I even went to the door of an editor's office for an interview that probably would have resulted in a very good writing job, but felt I heard a voice telling me to turn away. I obeyed, even though I did not then understand why.
At the end of a year I received a telegram requesting me to come instantly to a position that I immediately knew was my right one, although I had not even thought of it as possible. It took me into a field of editing and writing for which I had been preparing all my life, and it has proved to be God's way for me. Later, I learned that developments which resulted in that telegram summoning me had been taking place for many months. In other words, divine Principle had been operating to open the way for me, even though I had seen no step to take at any time except the very next one.
