During my senior year in high school, I began to experience alarming physical symptoms. My vision was doubled. By the fall of my freshman year in college, I began to have fainting spells, and my life was seriously disrupted.
I went home one weekend and consulted an optometrist, who felt the problem was neurological. I then went to another eye doctor who, after a lengthy examination, agreed; he said the symptoms suggested to him that there was a brain tumor and that legally he had to recommend a brain scan. When I told him I was a Christian Scientist, he said he had seen Christian Science heal, and felt that it could in this case.
I called a Christian Science practitioner to heal this condition through prayer. We got right to work on calming and destroying fear. I knew that God is omnipotent and is good, but I was afraid that my fear would prevent me from availing myself of this ever-present power of God. I prayed not just to know that fear has no power before the allness of God, but to truly realize this, in my thinking and in my daily life. I suddenly understood that nothing could block God's loving me or impede my spiritual progress (which results in healing). I knew that as a spiritual idea of God, I had the strength I needed to obey this direction from Science and Health: "Stand porter at the door of thought. Admitting only such conclusions as you wish realized in bodily results, you will control yourself harmoniously"
