For a year after the passing of my husband, I had been daily praying for God's direction. I needed to learn how to listen quietly, as I wanted to let go of my overwhelming need to outline and direct my future and to heal my sense of loss. For more than twenty years I had driven over two hours each day to go to work. When a dear friend and co-worker asked me to share an apartment that was located within two blocks of our new office, I was able to make the change without a moment's hesitation and with gratitude. This move resulted in a year of uplifting joy during which my prayers to know my "right place" were answered.
The change in air quality from the beach community where I had lived, however, to an area with air that appeared to be much more polluted was not so easy for me. I suffered severely from allergies that kept me up all night. In addition, our new office was under construction, with lots of dust and building particles permeating the work area. When my company placed an air filter in our offices, I decided to place one in my bedroom as well, thinking that it would allow me to get enough rest so that I could continue working. The filter helped some, but it did not heal the condition.
There were so many changes going on at this time that I didn't specifically pray to heal this annoying, but not disabling, condition. I was, however, rejoicing in my new church affiliation with newfound friends. I then moved into a lovely apartment of my own. When I moved the air filters into my new apartment, I suddenly realized that I no longer needed these crutches. I was completely healed, and I no longer suffer from allergies. Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy specifically tells us: "If you decide that climate or atmosphere is unhealthy, it will be so to you. Your decisions will master you, whichever direction they take." It goes on to say in the next paragraph: "Stand porter at the door of thought. Admitting only such conclusions as you wish realized in bodily results, you will control yourself harmoniously" (p. 392).
