Have you ever wondered: Who am I? Am I important? Does my life matter? If people like me, am I more worthy? If they don’t, is there something inferior about me? These were some of the questions that plagued me until I realized my true identity as God’s beloved child.
During many years of a verbally and emotionally abusive marriage, my sense of self-worth eroded away, and I found myself dealing with anorexia. My intake of food was minimal, and excessive exercise was my way of handling stress. A sense of inadequacy and self-condemnation blinded me to an understanding of my true identity as a child of God. I could see others as children of God, but I saw myself as inferior and unworthy of love. My body weight decreased year by year.
One day, a friend told me that I needed to wake up and start eating, because there was something seriously wrong with me. At first I was shocked, since I had convinced myself that my habits were normal. My friend suggested I get medical help. But I knew I could turn to God for healing, as I had so many times before as a student of Christian Science. Throughout the years, I had prayed daily to God and experienced many Christian Science healings of myself and of family members, including of disease, a serious fall onto my head, severe hemorrhaging, an arm that clearly looked broken (it was healed in a few days), and more. With each demonstration of healing, my trust in God grew.
