Many years ago, according to physical and medical testimony I had reached the end of all hope. I was under such an extreme claim of inflammatory rheumatism that I could sleep only under the influence of opiates and could not dress or feed myself without assistance. My training and experience had been as a bookkeeper, but I was told that the deformity of my hands would be permanent and since my thought of "making a living" was entirely material and as my parents had passed on. I was considering the desirability of ending my miserable existence, which I did, but in quite a different way from my expectation. I had thought of giving up my life, but was told by a. Christian Science practitioner how to unlace the belief of life in matter with the more abundant Life, God.
When Christian Science treatment was recommended to me I consented to it, but just as hopelessly as I had to every dose of medicine and each treatment which specialist after specialist had administered, and "just as a last resort," but from the very first Christian Science treatment came the inspiration to learn the truth. I am so grateful to the Christian Science practitioner who so lovingly and patiently explained the truth of being to my frightened human thought and told me about God and His image and likeness, and the self-evident difference between my sick and miserable human beliefs and God's perfect and indestructible expression, man in one month I was entirely healed of rheumatism, even to the deformity of my hands, and was back at work. Then I realized another blessing, I did not feel the burden of personal obligation about making a living as I had before, for in the proportion that I learned that God is the only Life I also learned that living must be to express God.
I had been a member of a denominational church since girlhood and had tried to be content without the explanation of life which the church had failed to give me, but occasionally I would wonder and question the why, how, and wherefore of mortal existence but never found a satisfactory answer in material theories, so to me the most wonderful healing has been of my ignorance about God and of my horror of punishment after death, for I had been taught that one died and went to heaven or hell and I was in an agitated mental state most of the time over that theory. It is more than comforting to learn of God as Spirit, and thereby realize His omnipresence and to learn that heaven is a divine state of thought and that we can be in heaven here and now.
