I treasure the memory of that glorious day when Christian Science first came to me. My family was in a state of despondency over financial troubles, my mother's poor health, and other discordant conditions. The weight of it all seemed to me, then a young girl, more than I could bear, and in my ignorance I felt very bitter towards God for sending us nothing but trouble and misery. Then a neighbor told me of God as Christian Scientists know Him. The message she brought me, that God is ever present Love and sends happiness and good to His children, opened the door to a new world, and I felt a great load roll off my shoulders, never to return. The glimpse of Christian Science which then came to our family began at once to cast out fear and bring harmony and confidence into our home. Although fear of evil has not been entirely cast out, yet it has never had a stronghold in my consciousness since the revelation came that there is no place where God is not able to save us, no problem that the understanding of Christian Science cannot solve.
Very soon I had an opportunity to prove this. It was nearly time for me to start the college education I so much wanted. It had been planned for me to go to a certain eastern college, but at this time my father's financial affairs were in such a state that it seemed impossible for this plan to be carried out. However, I was determined not to give up the idea. A Christian Scientist pointed out to me that it was not my will but God's that I should desire, and also assured me that God's will for me was good and that I could trust Him to bring out His plan for me. With the casting out of self-will a sense of peace and confidence in God's goodness came over me and stayed with me for months. How grateful I am that my father, harassed as he was at that time, also turned to God for help, with the result that I was able to start when the time came. After that, each year brought an increased supply, until the four years were happily completed.
Christian Science has taught me that God can guide the events of my life with far better results than can human will or reason. I have found that the more radically I rely on God, the more fruitful of good are my experiences. Once, after seeing how unhappily several of my own attempts to plan things had come out, I turned wholly to God. I left the place where I was then employed, as I was staying there only through fear that if I gave it up I should not get another. Without knowing even what occupation I was to take up, or where I should be located, I asked God to give me the experience I needed for my spiritual growth. I was led to work which I loved, and a place where a beautiful home and pleasant companionship were awaiting me. Thus does our Father-Mother God fill all human needs.
