The loss of our first child at birth aroused me to the fact that I needed to gain a much deeper understanding of God. For the next several months I spent most of my free time studying Science and Health by Mrs. Eddy, as well as her other writings. At the end of a year my husband and I had the joyous experience of class instruction. I shall always be grateful for this experience, as it increased my desire for growth in Christian Science more than ever before. I have experienced a greater sense of joy and of freedom from fear, and have been able to demonstrate the healing efficacy of Christian Science to a much fuller degree.
Two years later we again desired to start a family. During the period of pregnancy I earnestly searched my thought for any false beliefs that had not been rooted out. I found I was fearful about the doctor's prediction that I might not be able to carry a child nine months unless I had an operation. This fear was met through prayerfully and steadfastly holding to two of our hymns in the Christian Science Hymnal. No. 144 reads in part:
He holds us perfect in His love,
And we His image bear.
