I was raised in Christian Science, and I relied totally on God for healing during my childhood. I attended the Christian Science Sunday School until I was sixteen. Then I drifted from this Science.
Twenty years later I found myself suffering from alcoholism. Part of the definition of "hell" in Science and Health by Mrs. Eddy reads (p. 588), "self-imposed agony." I tried diligently to extract myself from what seemed a hell of despair, discouragement, and defeat. However, my efforts were all on a human level, including the use of self-will, psychiatry, and a self-help group for alcoholics. None of these helped.
Confusion set in, and I became extremely depressed. I did not know what to do or where to turn. I was desperate. Again and again there was a strong impulsion to quit drinking. It had become imperative that I stop. Yet I didn't know how.
