There was a time in my life when everything fell apart. I was living in another country, feeling lonely and isolated, full of self-doubt, confused about my purpose, and chronically ill. I spent my days barely able to get off the couch.
In hindsight, I see that Christian Science at that time was mostly a means of making me happy and comfortable, and it wasn’t working! But I began a journey to gain a more genuine understanding and practice of Christian Science. I wrestled with spiritual concepts and learned to listen deeply for God. The days would pass in mental turmoil—until some divine idea would break through with clarity and power. My heart would fill on those days with hope and confidence, only to deflate, and I’d lose my way again.
During this intense yearning and striving, I came upon Mary Baker Eddy’s article “Pond and Purpose,” from the book Miscellaneous Writings 1883–1896. In a metaphysical exploration of baptism, she leads the reader through the transformative experiences of spiritualization.
