As I read the Journal and Sentinel, is seems to me that every needful thing is being said, and much better than I can say it. But the duty rests upon each of us to acknowledge God as revealed by Christian Science.
Years of study of the so-called natural sciences caused me to see existence from a wholly material point of view, until gradually my earlier teachings of God, seemed both illogical and mythological. The miracles of the Scriptures were fairy stories to me. Jesus appeared to me as a man of high moral purpose, who was elevated by ignorance, fear, and sentiment into a God. The Bible was Jewish history, more or less unreliable,-the Old Testament almost meaningless, the New simply a code of morals, seemingly unattainable in its highest demands.
Genesis and Revelation stood side by side with Grecian mythology, so far as reason and authenticity went, and seemed an equally unintelligible and absurd effort on the part of man to account for the phenomena of existence. Thrown thus upon matter as the creator, henceforth its awful sequences became the reality. The fear that death would take from me those I loved engulfed the happiness of present companionship. Success, dependent upon self-exertion and subject mortal limitations, proved unattainable, and ambition and energy wearily gave up all effort to attain a higher flight.
