I give this testimony to the efficacy of Christian Science in the sincere hope that some one else may be helped out of the unutterable misery and hopelessness of a belief of life in matter into the light of Christian Science. Through doubt and fear, and wrong beliefs about God, man, and the universe, I came to a point where I could not believe there was a God, where death seemed the only hope of release from an existence which had become unbearable.
This was recognized by physicians and other practitioners as a purely mental condition or disease, called nervous exhaustion, and in addition there were various so-called physical ailments, particularly a trouble with my eyes. I could not look toward the lights in a church without pain. An oculist fitted me with glasses and told me I should never be without them while awake. In addition, I wore colored glasses when out of doors, and used a green shade over my eyes when trying to read; but I could scarcely read anything for many months, as I had no interest in anything unless I thought it would restore me to a calm mental condition.
I suffered other physical disorders, but what seemed the worst was the insistent fear of blindness, paralysis, insanity, and sudden death, although death finally came to be looked upon as welcome. These various fears destroyed all sense of enjoyment and kept me from sleeping more than an hour or two each night. I tried drugs for sleep, as I had great fear of the results of sleeplessness, but soon gave them up as I feared the drug habit even more. I tried baths of all kinds, various forms of exercise;everything, in fact, that I had ever heard of, except Christian Science.
