Too long have I delayed in writing of several, to me, outstanding healings I have had through an understanding of Christian Science. While in college, I had to face the severest test I had known, but I knew from my Sunday School and home training that the answer could be found in Christian Science. While in my third year, I became extremely depressed and morbid. At times I literally ached with gloom and wished for an end to it all, but all the time I was trying to work it out with the prayerful help of a Christian Science practitioner and loving support of my family. I was never free and did little else but study Christian Science and attend classes. I seemed unable to study academic subjects, but each day went to the university library, where I studied Christian Science literature on the shelves. At times I was urged to withdraw from college altogether to work this out, but I would not leave.
In a letter from my mother near the end of the school quarter was this quote from Psalms (46: 10): "Be still, and know that I am God." As if it had been illuminated, I saw that all I had to do was to know that God governed, that all was well and I could be at peace in this fact. I was already in His kingdom, and I could never be out of it. My consciousness was flooded with this truth, and I couldn't be swayed from it. I knew I was healed. When suggestions came, I could understand their powerlessness and reject them confidently. After one last mental struggle several days later the complete healing was mine and has remained permanent.
During final exams a few days later this understanding sustained me, although I had studied very little. My grades were higher than in any previous quarter. This, too, impressed me greatly as proof of the availability of God's help.
