I have much cause for testifying to the healing power of God as revealed in Christian Science. For four years after my divorce, I was to be included in what one might call "the mesmerism of sin." The people I associated with and the lifestyle I led were definitely not supportive of spiritual growth. I really don't know whether I thought I was happy or not at this stage of my life, as I was moving so fast and only concerned with my own wants. I was not making a good home for my little girl, either.
Finally I really hit the "bottom of the barrel" when I was involved in a particularly destructive relationship. I was definitely not happy at this point, but could see no way out of the mess. I felt trapped in something I knew was no good for either one of us, but my boyfriend didn't even see a problem. I was beginning to understand that "sensualism is not bliss, but bondage" (Science and Health). But how was I to get out and escape from the mesmerism of sensuality and mere physical attraction?
One day as I was reading from some of Mrs. Eddy's writings, certain passages just kind of jumped out at me. One statement was from Science and Health: "We must learn that evil is the awful deception and unreality of existence. Evil is not supreme; good is not helpless; nor are the so-called laws of matter primary, and the law of Spirit secondary." I realized there was no "law" that said I had to engage in this type of behavior or be stuck in its rut, and that God's law of good (the only true law) states that evil and sin have no power. They are both unreal because God did not create them and does not know of them. Therefore they could not influence me.
