I had slumped into a deep depression, overwhelmed by circumstances that I felt powerless to do anything about. Fear was a constant companion. I feared for my health, as I had been told that I was immune to antibiotics, and I had an allergy that was considered incurable. I would envy people with confidence, because I had none. I worried constantly about my children's health and safety. Added to this, I felt like a victim, always at the beck and call of other people.
I stopped seeing myself as a victim.
With my self-esteem at its lowest ebb, I thought life was passing me by. An overwhelming desire to rekindle my musical talent caused me to turn for help to a copy of Science andHealth with Key to the Scriptures that had been a gift to me several years before. In it I read: "The sharp experiences of belief in the supposititious life of matter, as well as our disappointments and ceaseless woes, turn us like tired children to the arms of divine Love. Then we begin to learn Life in divine Science" (Mary Baker Eddy, p. 322). I had heard of people being healed just by reading this book, so I began reading. I was hooked by the time I got to the bottom of page 1. I couldn't put it down. I let it speak to my hungering heart, and it did. I knew that I was going to find solutions to my problems. Every spare minute I had, I returned to reading it.
