When you’re yearning for healing, it can sometimes be tempting to accept a burdensome sense of personal obligation—namely, that it’s our duty to come up with a grand or transformative realization that will bring about good results. I’d often felt an intense personal responsibility about praying, and while I do continue to pray conscientiously, I’ve come to realize how unproductive it is to feel personally responsible for the unfoldment of good in my life; I need to trust God, who is the source of all good, with the outcome of my prayers.
The following experience removed the onus on me to “manage” my healing, and instead helped me to rely on this affirmation in Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy: “Truth makes man free” (p. 225).
Near the beginning of my junior year of track season in college, I was looking forward to another growth-filled several months of racing. But just as I finished a race at my first home meet and began a cool-down jog, I felt a sharp pain in my lower leg and found it very difficult to run, or even walk, comfortably.