Company was visiting. It was summer, and we went cherry-picking. I started experiencing internal pain but didn’t think much of it because I was enjoying the beautiful day. But that night things got worse, and by the next morning I could barely get out of bed.
I stayed in bed to pray. As I wondered what the problem was, all sorts of dark thoughts tempted me to be afraid. That’s when I decided to call a Christian Science practitioner to pray with me. She shared something that was a light in the darkness: “The power of Christian Science and divine Love is omnipotent. It is indeed adequate to unclasp the hold and to destroy disease, sin, and death” (Mary Baker Eddy, Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures, p. 412).
I clung to the idea that divine Love, God, was with me and could free me from pain. I knew from many other healings I had experienced in Christian Science that even though this problem seemed very physical, the true nature of it was mental. To me this meant that it was the dark, fearful thoughts I was battling that needed to be overcome. So I prayed, and asked God to awaken me to feel more of divine Love’s presence. And I listened. I knew that God always speaks to me in reassuring ways that help me go forward. I also asked God to help me see myself as my creator had made me and knows me—whole, spiritual, and free.