From early childhood I longed to know about God. I questioned my school teachers, but they did not pretend to know and advised me to ask a minister. Accordingly, I interviewed preachers of various denominations, but received no satisfactory answer. I knew the Ten Commandments, which make it imperative that we love God with all our heart, but it was impossible for me to do this because I thought, as I had often heard people say when going through a fearful experience, that it was God's will, and I could not love God if He were responsible for such malevolence.
In the course of time my health failed. I was troubled with insomnia and great weakness and was under the constant care of the best physicians at home and abroad without being in the least benefited. A friend of mine, who heard that I was not well, dropped in to see me. The doctor was at my bedside and seemed worried about my condition. After he left, my friend asked me why I did not try Christian Science. She was not a Scientist herself, but she had friends who had been helped by it. I knew nothing at all about this Science, never having seen, much less read, any of Mrs. Eddy's writings or any Christian Science literature, nor had I ever attended a church service. I talked the matter over with my husband, who also knew nothing of Science. He suggested, however, that I give it a trial, since I had tried everything else and had found no relief.
I arranged to go to a Christian Science practitioner. She received me kindly and listened patiently while I related my physical difficulties. When I finished, she made no comment regarding them, but to my amazement she began to tell me about God. I could not imagine what that had to do with my weakened condition, but I was delighted and grateful beyond words to have all my former questions so beautifully answered. I drank in every word, not doubting or questioning a single statement she made. On my way home I noticed that I walked with greater ease and freedom than I had experienced in years, but I had no idea that I had been healed. My joy and gratitude at having learned what God is knew no bounds.
