The turning point in my life as a Christian Scientist came when I was healed of a sense of fear so great that it had manifested itself in alarming physical symptoms. At one point I felt I might pass on, not so much from physical discomfort as from the tenacity of this aggressive suggestion of fear which seemed to numb my thinking to the truths of God and man.
I walked the floor distractedly in an attempt to awaken my thought, until suddenly I felt impelled to call a Christian Science practitioner long distance. The warmth and conviction of her words broke the mesmerism of the death-suggestion. She said, "My dear child, you are not a mortal, reacting to the suggestions of annihilation and fear; you are a spiritual idea, free to walk the heavenly pathway, unfettered and unafraid." Although I had far to go for a complete healing, the crisis was passed as I responded completely to these truths of man's spiritual identity, which nothing could destroy.
I realized that I had become overly concerned with handling the symptoms, the mere effects of a much deeper error which needed to be rooted out of consciousness. Probing more deeply into thought, I realized that the basic suggestion that man can be destroyed, which underlies mortal mind's fabricated existence, had been attempting to separate me from Life, God, through gradual infiltration and that I had been unconsciously allowing this intrusion. I rose in rebellion against this suggestion when the truth uncovered it in my thought.
