My husband and I had been married for several years, and while we each had our maturing to do, it seemed we were growing together to a degree. So it came as a surprise when he told me point-blank that he didn't love me anymore, and that he was in love with a woman he had met at work. I felt devastated. It was like having the rug pulled out from under my feet. I thought that our marriage would be secure and could withstand anything if I was praying with the understanding gained from my study of Christian Science. Divorce was absolutely out of the question to me. I was determined that the only healing would be if we stayed together.
On top of everything else that I was dealing with, it then became difficult for me to walk. I had to stay in bed for several days. I used crutches to do the simplest things around the house. The pain was acute at times. I asked a friend who is a Christian Scientist to pray with me. She visited me often and helped me in many ways.
As we prayed, I realized that I needed to let go of human will and self-righteousness and do whatever God led me to do, trusting my life to His care. Through turning to God and obeying His will, I gained a deeper understanding of God and what it really means to depend on Him and not on any person. For quite a while it was difficult for me to have a feeling of spiritual adventure about this situation. Feelings of anxiety and great fear came over me at times. "What is my husband doing? Who is he with? What is going to happen to me?" These are just some of the fears that I had to face head-on. And I did, with God's help.
