I woke up happy, and we had plans to do something fun amidst the shelter-in-place. We were going to venture out to a nearby farm stand to make an “essential” purchase of fresh-picked strawberries so we could make some yummy jam. But as I began to get ready for the day, thoughts of shame began to fill my consciousness. Not again!
I had suffered burdensome moments of shame based on past experiences where I would now act differently if given the chance. But right on the heels of that disturbance, an angel message came: “Don’t look back.” The fate of Lot’s wife came to thought. I knew that looking back at bad moments is a way error would keep me from moving forward.
That morning I did not want to go into that unpleasant mental space. I knew that genuine repentance had brought reform through Christ, and so I didn’t deserve to continue to suffer from regret of a past event. I am God’s child, “cared for, watched over, beloved and protected” (Christian Science Hymnal, No. 278).