When I first heard of Christian Science I was on the verge of a physical and mental breakdown. A practitioner gave us some copies of The Herald of Christian Science [German edition] to read, and I read them eagerly. I knew at once that Christian Science was the truth, and this assurance gave me hope that it might be my deliverance. My husband was suffering a great deal, and I suffered from a serious female trouble. But a few weeks after reading the Heralds, I asked the practitioner for treatment, and she lovingly gave it to me. The next day I felt miserable, but on the following day the trouble disappeared.
I turned to Christian Science at the right time, for shortly after my healing I went through deep waters. I found that our financial situation was very bad; our family was large, and almost all our children had yet to receive their education and training. Then my husband passed on. Only the confidence that I gained from Christian Science and the help I received from the practitioner kept me from despairing. I can truly say, "Unless thy law had been my delights, I should then have perished in mine affliction." Continually I had to struggle against the material testimony which would have made me believe in hard times and impoverishment.
One day the error was especially tenacious. All day the error insisted that I did not then understand enough of Christian Science to prove that God is the source of supply. What troubled me most of all was the thought that if I should not live through the financial collapse, Christian Science would be lost to my children. Although I was so frightened, I did not let go of the truth that God does not forsake His children. At night I did not sleep as well as usual, and struggled through many burdened hours. I decided to take the next opportunity of talking to the practitioner about the matter. That strengthened me somewhat, but next morning the mental battle continued. Eventually I thought of how beautifully Jesus' loyalty was rewarded by our heavenly Father. His great work was not lost, but preserved for all time, and is today scientifically explained by our dear Leader. Suddenly all fear and anxiety left me, and a wonderful sense of peace came over me, which continued with me throughout the day. The error was completely silenced and did not utter itself again.
