Some time ago I developed an intense, irrational fear that one of our children would pass on. This aggressive suggestion plagued me constantly, along with the temptation to resort to suicide. A friend, who is a Christian Scientist, kindly consented to stay some days with me and our three young children during the hours my husband was away at his job. Throughout this challenge my husband's patient understanding and unwavering perception of my innate perfection were both comforting and helpful. During the nights when I found it impossible to sleep, his strong, supportive statements of God's omnipotent love gave me hope and peace.
A Christian Science practitioner prayed daily for me. She shared many enlightening truths, and I was encouraged to study not only the Bible Lessons from the Christian Science Quarterly but specific passages from the Bible and the writings of Mary Baker Eddy. I realized that fearful thoughts are not included in true being, for man is the flawless offspring of God. Desperately I endeavored to hold on to the assurance that God is Love.
Suddenly, after about six months of mental struggle, the words "You will never fear again" came strongly to mind. They are from a passage in Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mrs. Eddy, which reads (p. 425): "Correct material belief by spiritual understanding, and Spirit will form you anew. You will never fear again except to offend God, and you will never believe that heart or any portion of the body can destroy you." Here was a promise that the dark cloud of fear could be dispersed and destroyed. I saw that the youngster I'd worried about was in fact a spiritual idea, whose nature was immortal. God, Life, was infinitely holding this dear one perfect in His love. As the divine Father-Mother, He eternally maintains and supports His own. Fear for the child and the temptation to commit suicide dropped away, and I was gloriously free.
