Ten years ago, my husband and I were moving into a newly constructed home. For several months prior to this, I had been experiencing pain and tightness of breath in my chest. Approximately a month after moving into our home, I became seriously ill at work. I thought I would lose consciousness. However, I was able to call a Christian Science practitioner to pray for me. He directed me to this passage in Science and Health: "Fear never stopped being and its action. The blood, heart, lungs, brain, etc., have nothing to do with Life, God. Every function of the real man is governed by the divine Mind. The human mind has no power to kill or to cure, and it has no control over God's man. The divine Mind that made man maintains His own image and likeness" (p. 151). This statement brought calm and relief from the symptoms. I felt very weak, however, and asked a colleague to drive me home.
I began to see
that I could trust
God's control of
everything.
During the next several days I prayed diligently to understand more clearly the truth of the above statement and to know that heart has nothing to do with my life, which is God's reflection. I was very fearful that I might pass on. I prayed for myself earnestly and vigorously. I also pored over the weekly Bible Lessons (found in the Christian Science Quarterly) and constantly studied Science and Health. I asked myself, "What are these statements telling me about how I am truly created?" I did research in the Bible and in the writings of Mrs. Eddy on ideas such as function, order, and rhythm. My fear lessened daily.
