In October of 2019 I awoke in the middle of the night with the sudden feeling that my whole body was failing and I was about to die. This came without warning; I had felt fine the day before. Now I was overwhelmed with fear. I woke my wife and we prayed together as we are taught in Christian Science, affirming that God is the one infinite Life, and so God is my life. Because of this fact, I realized I was in no danger and could rest assured and without fear in that knowledge. I was able to rest a little more that night, but the next day I seemed to have lost control over my bodily functions.
Immediately, I called for prayerful help from a Christian Science practitioner. I had experienced other significant healings and was confident in finding healing now. The practitioner was loving and steadfast.
But over the next month I could not leave the house at all, lost weight rapidly, and hardly slept. I have a full-time job from home and kept up my work schedule to some degree, taking off only one week. There were a few more instances when I thought I was about to die. While I never once thought I should give in to death, I felt sadness and guilt at the prospect of abandoning my wife.
