From early youth I was active in the work of an orthodox church. At the age of twenty-five, in a school of theology, I lost my belief in God. Because of a course I had taken in organic evolution, taught by a distinguished natural scientist, I had become an atheist. From this course, I had concluded that if life springs from matter, I might just as well accept the universe as self-evolved; so I decided that the notion of the existence of God was a fiction.
So I left the school and went to a big city and was adrift seven years like a ship without a rudder. In the service of the American Red Cross I made the acquaintance of several Americans who were Christian Scientists and who had what I termed the triumphant outlook on life. I started to attend regularly a branch Church of Christ, Scientist. The testimonies of Christian Science healing told there impressed me deeply. But I did not seem to understand a word of this religion. However, the light in the faces of the members of the church drew me and held me.
After two months I talked one day with a Scientist from San Francisco who had related a recent healing in Christian Science which had saved one of his hands from amputation. During that brief interview at his hotel, I saw faintly this truth: that the universe is run in accordance with immutable laws, but that they are spiritual and not material. I began to see that a thing of matter could be in only one place at one time; whereas law is ever present, and therefore there must be an ever-present God.
